| dedicated to the ones who have helped me get through my dark days.
this is my gift to those who were once in my shoes.
**************DISCLAIMER********************
IN NOW WAY WAS THIS INTENED TO BE TARGETED TOWARDS ANY PARTICULAR PEOPLES. READ THE PIECE IN ITS ENTIRETY TO UNDERSTAND THE TRUE MEANING. THANK YOU.
when this form of hate awakes from its dormant state
its sicker than norman bates eating your heart off an orange plate
and i just cant wait to display this rage that escaped
this could be the single greatest showcase of vengeance to date
and who do i have to thank for turning me into a basketcase?
nobody in particular only the entire human race
thats also including everything from the earth's face to outer space
ah fuck it, see if i care if my ass too gets erased
i don't feel a goddamned thing, my skins harder than diamonds
rougher than granite, tougher than a 10 year old's hymen
im tryin my best to bring myself to cryin'
but its hard to see thru these tears while im sittin here ryhmin'
and before i know it my senses will all begin dyin'
till there's nothing left inside but an old broken violin'
who's heart strings have been plucked with considerable violence
try to play it and all you'll here is silence
this numbness is beginning to take over my brain, theres no pain
i must've downed seventy miligrams of novacaine
and spawned a new strain of disease with no name
which i will shoot to the sky so it can come back down as rain
and dont try to outrun your fate you must be insane
just cuz im out of my mind doesnt mean i forgot how to aim
now wait a second, before you start the criticizing game
give me a chance , let me have two minutes to explain
see im a man who's been broken on more than one occassion
im surprised i still know my name and remember that im asian
ill have many trials to face and wish i could skip these tests
how can i see clearly when there's a black void in my chest
i cant even say my heart aches, i dont know how its feeling
see it was ripped out and it wasnt even done healing
should i bother to get it back? should i bother to care?
is there anything left to take in, salvage or repair?
i could easily replace it with a cold pack and let it fester
and add a new meaning of the word ice chest to webster
then i can walk around the planet known as "john, karma incarnate"
i wont discriminate as i randomly wreak havoc on my targets
so they can feel my pain and see how my soul is tearing apart
maybe then they'll be more careful with other people's hearts
now do you see why i felt the way i did in verse one?
its not as if im doing all this nutty shit just for fun.
i needed a means to vent, for me this was the only way
to maintain a sense of self and make it through the day
tis bad enough that im hurting everytime i take a breath
i cant let my thoughts take control and drive me to my death
so i gathered my composure and decided to get creative
put together some words meant to knock you out like a sedative
arranged them in a way so that one line rhymed with the next
but they were nothing serious , its ok, they're empty threats
i understood that a good way to keep my sanity nice and whole
was to play a different part and be a temporary asshole
so fear not , i dont plan on killing , you can all rest easy
because i still value the way that the people around see me
just because im in pain , doesnt mean that my heart is hollow
sit back and relax as i set an example for everyone to follow
and stay true to my belief that despite the darkest of days
the sun rays will always shine on you and pave the way
but some effort on your part is needed if you want to see the light
muster that inner strength and reassure yourself that it will be arrite
i know that now all hope seems lost and you dont know what to do
though you never really know what the future holds in store for you
look past your current troubles, dwelling is never the answer
negativity will only spread throughout your body like a cancer
instead battle back with your own dosage of self dignity
and let them know you plan to shine from now to infinity
just try to do what i did and look beyond all the hurt
it takes some courage and some time but i swear that it will work
understand that pain is a part of life, take its lessons and learn
whether you like it or not this world will continue to turn
next time you're ever dealt a bad blow, absorb it and in return
use it to spark a flame, ignite the bridges behind you till they burn!
now even if you wanted to you couldn't linger in the past
keep moving forward , you have no choice, look back and you'll crash
use these words that ive said as a means to perish the thought
of giving up, keep on living and dont stop seeking that which you sought
and on the day you feel like you've overcome these dark stages
forget me not and let my voice reverberate through the ages.
*salute
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